It’s ok

The last three weeks have been challenging for me. Lots of thoughts keep coming, some insecurity, agony and pressure to make everyday a ‘good day’. I personally want to feel like each day I am improving and going a step forward. A step forward as a husband, as a father, as a friend, as a productive person, as a human. 2020 has been full of good and challenging surprises for me until now.

Two weeks ago my wife started having contractions so it was time for us to go to the hospital. Ten hours later I had a call that I had to go back as my wife was going into labour, and nine hours after that we were holding in our hands our lovely second son. As everything went well, we were expecting to go home by the end of that day but as things turned out, both my wife and the baby had to stay longer.

Long story short, our baby son had to have blood transfusion and eventually nine days later they were back home. All that time I couldn’t be with them, as partners weren’t allowed in the hospital due to the virus so I had to stay home with our eldest son. IT WAS TOUGH FOR EVERYONE AND THE LONGEST NINE DAYS. What that situation taught me is that we can’t predict of how things will turn out, how they will affect us and IT’S OK.

The truth is that sometimes we’re not ok but we will be. We will hold on but eventually we will let go. It will be tough but we will make it through. We may feel fear but we will get stronger. 

We have to try and do things with whatever life gives us. Due to COVID-19 our life routines have changed completely and there’s not much we can do about it. We have to be like water; making it’s way through cracks, we have to always find a way to adjust in any situation. We don’t have to feel fear, as fear freezes us and makes us numbed; instead we have to be ready and open to move on and grow from these challenges.

Are they comfortable? Absolutely not.

Are they part of our life and vital to grow? Sure.

So, it’s ok to have hard times,

It’s ok to have bad days,

It’s ok to don’t feel productive,

It’s ok to do less and

It’s ok to do what’s best for YOU.

Those are my thoughts when I don’t feel ok. Because, it’s ok not to be ok and it’s ok to talk about it.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and I hope it will help you when you won’t feel ok next time! I would like to know your thoughts and what you personally do when you have those moments.